Holistic bliss?

IMG_7029Holistic bliss? I’m not sure? I definitely don’t think the people who know me would put me in the “holistic” category.

Spiritual? Yes. A child of God? Yes. A lover of the Lord, yes. Holistic? No. But in two days I will actually have lived a half a century. Isn’t that amazing? And not only have I matured, and gained a lot of wisdom through the years… I’ve also found myself evolving into a more holistic approach to living.


1 : of or relating to holism
2 : relating to or concerned with wholes or with complete systems rather than with the analysis of, treatment of, or dissection into parts holistic medicine attempts to treat both the mind and the body holistic ecology views humans and the environment as a single system
— holistically play \hō-ˈli-sti-k(ə-)lē\ adverb
Merriam Webster Dictionary

I don’t think that I would have went this route if Lupus hadn’t taken over my body. I’m still NOT claiming lupus, or accepting it! I don’t want to have anything to do with this disease! But I can no longer control the chronic pain I’m in.  However, there ARE  things I can do that help me relieve the stress and tension involved with it.

By paying close attention to my body I’ve realized that I tense up when I’m hurting. I don’t even realize I’m doing it without being mindful of it. I have to actually remind myself throughout the day to release my scrunched shoulders. To take a deep breath. To visualize the Lord comforting me and holding me. Btw: YES, you can be holistic and be a Christian.

I also hold my breath without realizing it. When I find myself “sighing” every few minutes, that’s my clue that I’m not breathing appropriately. I have to mindfully remind myself of my breath and my breathing patterns.

Take a deep breath, hold it, and then release my breath slowly… it’s become a form of meditation for me.

Two reasons I hold my breath is 1) from pain, (a reason prenatal instructors or midwives teach you how to breathe correctly when you’re in the throws of labor). When you’re hurting, YOU HOLD YOUR BREATH. The other reason? I get get pleurisy quite frequently from Lupus. Which makes it extremely painful for me to take deep breaths. So mindful breathing helps me a great deal.

I’ve learned that chronic pain can be lonely at times (especially for an outgoing social person).  It can keep you holed up in your house. It can keep you bed-ridden at times, etc. You get the point.

When this happens, I turn to “my” comfortable habits. One of those habits is food. Comfort food has been a big part of my life since I was a child. My Grandma and Momma were/are the best cooks/bakers ever. This tradition was handed down to me, my sister, AND my brother!!! Omgosh… by brother should have been a chef! Mmm!!!

It has taken me a LOOOONG time to learn how to eat! And, it’s still a process.

I’ve done every kind of “diet” imaginable. I would lose weight, gain it back, lose weight, gain it back (although I was never really overweight like I am now). All the different diets left me a half century later more confused than EVER about what to put in my mouth. I never knew which diet was the correct diet, or the healthiest diet. I also never found one I could stick to. Besides that, I went thru menopause, lost my usual activity due to Lupus, and have to take steroids for my chronic pain. Again, NOT a winning combo!

So not only have I been studying nutrition and how it medicinally helps me, I joined WW to learn how to freaking eat again! 🙄 I don’t want ANY foods to be off limits, but I also want to eat what is healing to my body. Old habits are hard to break. But if I can quit smoking, I can do anything! (And I did that, thank God). The entire “eating process” is getting easier, and healthier. I’m not turning to food for comfort anymore. And that’s a huge thing for me.

My medicine cabinet is full of medicinal foods, essential oils, Epsom salts for long hot baths, aromatherapy, and soon I’ll be adding CBD oil to that list… and personally? I can’t wait! Why? Because I’m in chronic pain… I hate steroids, and I won’t take opiates (unless I’m on my death-bed or recovering from a surgery). To me CBD is natural… which is far better for my body then prescription  pain pills. I never thought I’d ever try this, but when you’re in this kind of pain, it’s actually a light at the end of a very long tunnel. And yes, unfortunately I DO have to take a cocktail of prescribed medications. However, it’s the least amount I can get away with, without making me sicker in the process.

For comfort, I stick to my husband, my fireplace, and a good book. For joy? My husband, kids, and grandkids, and family.

For exercise? Well… why did I ever think I had to compete, or jump all over the room in an aerobics class, or workout like I was training for the olympics to be “exercising”?

Now I’m sticking to “short” walks.  Yoga and/or Pilates… if it hurts I stop. I do it for health reasons, not for the “perfect 10” body. Give me a break, “I’m over it” lol! (It only took me 50 years…)

I pray/meditate for stress relief, and to help with my CNS. Ahhhh… a WONDERFUL habit.

I think God is leading me toward a holistic life so I can live another 50 years! And hopefully live it without as much pain as I’m in right now.

Until he heals me or he brings a cure for Lupus… I think I’ll stay on this path. 💛

God bless, Su

19 Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; 20 you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies. 1 Corinthians 6:19-20



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